This is the best surprise audio post I’ve ever seen/heard.
THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY
The egg made me so confused and then the SONG STARTED PLAYING AND EVERYTHING MADE SENSE AND NOTHING HURT
okay instant happiness
Three worlds but the three are one
There are many worlds, but they share the same sky — One sky, one destiny.
so I haven’t been officially diagnosed
but the doctor says I have most of the symptoms of depression, and have been referred.
I’m going mad.
This isn’t specified at one person, but several people, some who are whom on my dashboard (I won’t name) and some who I’ve just heard about, but I’ve heard of several people attempting suicides lately.
Now, this is such an obvious thing to say, but really, really you need to listen.
Suicide is never never never never never never the answer.
I’ve been there. I’m not someone who’s ranting because I think it’d be good to tell people how they shouldn’t go and off themselves because it’s not a nice thing to do — I’ve been very close on that door. I’ve never been what you would consider brave enough to go and do something to myself — but I’ve self harmed, I’ve spent days where you sit in that lingo of self-worthlessness, not quiet knowing where there is purpose, where there is point.
But really, suicide is NEVER. the. answer.
There is always hope, no matter where you look. There is always something worth fighting for, worth living for. If it doesn’t seem like it right now, then it will either goddamned come to you or you will find it.
For me, it was faith. Faith in a God who may or may not be real, but I chose to believe in that because it gets me up in the morning. It gives me a cause. But I’ve heard other accounts — some people it’s love, some people it’s friends, family, even a pet. Even just a ‘simple’ animal refused to leave someone’s side the whole night, and they made them decide to go on just because the animal wouldn’t have anyone. I’ve even heard an account as small as it being a sunrise.
Seriously, the turning point does not need to be ‘important’, because the smallest light in the thickest darkness shines the brightest. It is a foundation. A foundation of hope, and when you hope onto hope, trust me, it becomes an unbreakable cord.
Do not give up on yourself. There are many, many others who haven’t. But do not. give. up. on. yourself.
No, I don’t know your situations, your circumstances, your downfalls, your mentality, your stability, or anything. I’ve met people in horrific surroundings. I’m sorry, I’m really sorry if you’re in what I consider to be a ‘hole’. I’m in one of my own, but compared to others it’s very shallow.
I know a lot of the Anon hate going around now has put a big infliction on people. To some, who really get hurt by this, cannot take these people who think it’s alright to put such blatantly rude messages. For others, it just ends up being the straw that breaks the camel’s back.
But listen to me, please, if you ever, ever think of ending your own life. If you think there’s no point, if you think you might as well end it now because what’s left? Just, please, listen for a minute.
I can’t make it better. I can’t make promises that it won’t be harder than anything you’ve done to put those pills, that knife, whatever, down. To think about turning away from those thoughts. Because it will be a fight. It will be one hell of a fucking fight, tooth and nail, exhausting, soul-breaking fight to get away from it all. I… can’t promise that things will get better straight away. I definitely can’t say that things will remain better, because that’s what life is; ups and downs, and utterly, completely not fair.
But you know what it is? Beautiful. Life is absolutely beautiful.
And you know what else? You are, too. I KNOW there are so many messages on tumblr and pictures and gifsets and stories and whatever about how you are beautiful and how you are loved and how you should never let anyone or yourself get you down. In my own opinion, they don’t really work — they feel impersonal, passive, even.
But please, just.. out of anything I say here, just trust me on this.
You ARE so… so… beautiful. Every single one of you. Every single person who reads this, no matter what age, gender, race, sexuality, religion, species, hair colour, nationality, blemish…. anything. Just think about it for a minute. You have been created, either by an amazing million amazing circumstances or coincidences or by some greater being that has created you EXACTLY as you are. EXACTLY as you need to be. It doesn’t matter if you’re short, fat, blonde haired, dark skinned, have issues, mentally or otherwise, because you are all. so. … amazing. We all have this amazing capacity to exceed our own limits. Even for you that are struggling to keep on living every day you are reading this right now and that is so … amazing to see that. You are finding the strength still to get out of bed in the morning, to fight and stand up to the world today and go ‘here I am’ all because you fucking exist. and you know what? You have a damned right to be able to go to the world and tell it who you bloody are. Because you know what? You are amazing. You are epic. You are awesome.
Keep on fighting, because I believe that every single one of you who reads this will. Find something to keep fighting for, even if it is just to see that damned sunrise every morning that annoys you because it wakes you up. Fight for it.
And if you ever need to talk, ever need to unload, ever need support, my askbox is forever and always open.
I’ll be praying for every single one of you. I’m here to help however I can. We’re all here.
Don’t give up.